Crap! It is all crap! True freedom happens when and only when I realize that I can’t know what I don’t know. Every experience is ‘good.’ Every instance is for learning and discovering. When I go along thinking ‘oh, I’ve done this before, I can ‘handle’ it,’ I am immediately shutting off anything that might be new or interesting. By not handling it the way I have a million times before I may find a different way of doing it. A better way of doing it. A profound way of doing it. Also trying to apply past experience to a new situation shuts down the possibility of creativity, inspiration and learning.
In so many situations I had never been in before I acted as if I knew what I was doing but was terrified the whole time of making a mistake, of looking foolish, of being found out that I didn’t know what I was doing. Fake it til you make it. More and more I am able to be o.k. with not knowing. To admit that I don’t know. To not step in and handle it immediately.
Miraculous things are beginning to happen, I believe, because I am open to experiencing something new. I’m willing to tap into the not knowing, so things I don’t know can surface. Ya know? My previous modem of operation was to decide the desired outcome, pick a goal, then figure out the steps to get there. And then work real, real hard to make it happen. Now, I get a feeling, a notion, an actual ‘inspiration’ and I think, ‘I wonder what this will lead to?’ Inspiration has room in my life, now that the plans have been laid aside.
God absolutely gives me things I can’t handle so I can grow, learn, experience and be alive!
How are you handling things?