If you are on the awakening journey that I wrote about last “Western Women Awakening” one of your main concerns will be wanting to get somewhere. You may have no idea where you want to go, but know strongly that you no longer want to remain ‘here.’
I am here to save you some grief. You cannot get there from here. The part about awakening that we love to jump right over is the ‘journey’ part. Because of our masculine driven ethos – set a goal, work really hard, achieve goal, move on—a long, meandering journey of self discovery and awakening seems foreign and certainly unproductive, which is the ultimate horror in our goal-centric culture. Any attempt to ‘conquer’ an awakening journey in a masculine way simply will not work. I admit that this has been and still is the most difficult part of my experience. It is frustrating to say the least. But, I keep feeling pulled forward and am learning to embrace uncertainty and even enjoy it.
Even if you think you know the clear path, like getting a degree or the promotion (masculine procedure), if it is part of your awakening journey you will be surprised, challenged and ultimately shaped by experiences you can’t know yet. You can make a declaration, invoke the Universe, angels, guides, the Ascended Masters, etc. and be positive you know where you’re going. You can even have a clear vision of what ‘it’ looks like. But, the path you embark on will be nothing like you can imagine. In fact, It will crazily look like it goes off in the exact opposite direction you would logically choose. This is ‘normal’ for expansion and awakening.
It is Uncomfortable for a Reason
You are feeling discomfort on some or all levels of your being for a reason. It’s sole purpose is to make you discontent with the here and now. If you did not feel discomfort, there would be no need to change anything or search out anything new. We describe this often when talking about human development. There’s birth – the first journey – toddlerhood moves to childhood which moves to adolescence which moves to adulthood which moves into middle age then old age then death. A complete cycle of a whole bunch of stages of development. We move from stage to stage whether we want to or not. They are built in. So it is with your spiritual, emotional or soul journey. You are on a path and you can enjoy the experience or not, but you will have the experience. You have choices along the way, but you do not have the choice about going through it.
As with all stages, there are people who can tell you of their experiences, there are scientific, psychological, medical, etc. descriptions/explanations of the processes, but your journey through will be unique and only you can do it.
The Only Way Out is Through.
The only way you get there from here is one, small next step at a time. The process is the journey and the journey is what you need to have experienced in order to be ‘there’ when you get there. Meaning, all the struggles, delights, wonderments and discoveries that happen to you along the path of leaving what is comfortable and following what FEELS like ‘yes’ is exactly how you will get ‘there.’ You will not be prepared fully to experience and enjoy the ‘there’ already waiting for you unless and until you do all the next steps along the way.
The small, next step always, always, always feels like ‘yes,’ or curiosity or peace. The next step will always be doable. ‘not to say that step won’t at times be a scary one, but it will be doable and you know you will live and on some level you want to do it.
The next steps won’t always come when you think you’re ready or when it’s convenient. You will be required to take many rest breaks, to integrate what you have already done. This is not as delightful as it sounds. We are not taught how to rest and there is much stigma around it. Every part of your journey will require you to trust. Many times you will not know the next step until it appears before you. Step, rest, integrate, step. That is the journey. You’re on it.